So there is always a "Good News, Bad News" story, right? So, when I got here this morning I wasn't able see her because they were doing a bronchoscopy - that's the bad news. But then, I was able to go back about 11 and the doctor was still there - that's the good news. He said she had a few secretions in the lungs and was able to some of that out during the bronch - that's the good news. But then he said, "... and she will probably be intibated for four maybe five DAYS." Any guess on that one? Yeah, that's the bad news. But considering the worst of our bad news on this blog, it's really not so bad. As long as it doesn't stretch to 28 days, right?
However, I will finish off with good news. When I went into the room, I immediately straightened her fingers (remember that she lost some fingertips the last time) and when I walked around the bed, she was following me with her eyes! Crazy good news! Now, let me be clear. She only looked, did a quick nod when I said the surgery went well, wrinkled her eyebrow when I said she would be on the vent for a few days, then faded away. I stayed back there for 20 min, and she didn't ever wake up again. They have her on the heavy duty meds again.
We know that her numbers look really good and she does have a little fever, but that is to be expected. I am not worried about that stuff yet.
Also, I need you to know that I realize someone, somewhere is planning a funeral and writing an obituary today. They are heavy on my heart every time I write. I promise you, in a day or two, I will visit those thoughts more deeply. I am putting it off, not because their sacrifice is an afterthought, but because it I feel the full weight of their loss. It is not something I am avoiding, but something I want to make certain I can articulate the very best I have to offer them. Though even at my best, it will still be only words.
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